Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 12:02 PM
I'm gonna remind myself never to place my mistakes on my head, their weight may crush me down. Instead, place them under my feet and use them as a platform to view my own horizons.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Sunday, November 8, 2009 12:12 PM
I'm always afraid that we might end.
I'm afraid I'll be the one writing those heart-broken quotes about being alone, because I know I would never be able to move on from what we have. Tie your heart at night to mine, baby.
We'll defeat the darkness like twin drums beating in the forest against the heavy wall of wet leaves.
Stay with me, don't give us up.
"Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down."
Been listening this song on my ipod over and over for 2 days already, I've never really liked this song. Brings back bad memories. But I've left the memories aside and concentrated on the lyrics and the meaning of it.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
I'm afraid I'll be the one writing those heart-broken quotes about being alone, because I know I would never be able to move on from what we have. Tie your heart at night to mine, baby.
We'll defeat the darkness like twin drums beating in the forest against the heavy wall of wet leaves.
Stay with me, don't give us up.
"Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down."
Been listening this song on my ipod over and over for 2 days already, I've never really liked this song. Brings back bad memories. But I've left the memories aside and concentrated on the lyrics and the meaning of it.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009 12:56 AM
WHY IS SPENDING TIME TOGETHER SO SO SO SO SO DIFFICULT?!
I don't expect much, I only get to see you once a week. Can't you just make the effort to cancel your appointments on girlfriend/boyfriend day just to be with me? I'm seriously upset. I'm gonna pop some sleeping pills and off to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day..
Rain drops and the tears kept falling, I see your face and it keeps me going.
Using my entire life to love you, covering every harm against you.
I just can't stand certain people, when you start being good to them. They climb over your head, you know what? I'm not going to be very nice anymore, I won't have patience with pathetic and childish people. Once you start pissing or annoying me, I'll just hang up. A few of them calls me "sister", but I don't take them as one. They don't know me well. And one of their boyfriend is just plain pathetic, once he heard I was pregnant he laugh and started being sarcastic. HAHA! Come on you, you're nothing but peanut skin to me. My friends beated you up like a dog last time, you begged for my ex boyfriend's help when you had trouble at Punggol Park. It's like hello, you created the trouble deal with it yourself dumb shit. Why get my ex boyfriend and his friends to get involve in your childish act. Seriously, I don't mind going right into your face and make you the laughing stock infront of your friends. If you didn't know, Ilana is fucking arrogant. I don't need back up, I got my own back bone. You wanna come mess with me bring it on. I don't need to touch you or any sort. Words coming out from my mouth is enough to kill you already.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
WHY IS SPENDING TIME TOGETHER SO SO SO SO SO DIFFICULT?!
I don't expect much, I only get to see you once a week. Can't you just make the effort to cancel your appointments on girlfriend/boyfriend day just to be with me? I'm seriously upset. I'm gonna pop some sleeping pills and off to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day..
Rain drops and the tears kept falling, I see your face and it keeps me going.
Using my entire life to love you, covering every harm against you.
I just can't stand certain people, when you start being good to them. They climb over your head, you know what? I'm not going to be very nice anymore, I won't have patience with pathetic and childish people. Once you start pissing or annoying me, I'll just hang up. A few of them calls me "sister", but I don't take them as one. They don't know me well. And one of their boyfriend is just plain pathetic, once he heard I was pregnant he laugh and started being sarcastic. HAHA! Come on you, you're nothing but peanut skin to me. My friends beated you up like a dog last time, you begged for my ex boyfriend's help when you had trouble at Punggol Park. It's like hello, you created the trouble deal with it yourself dumb shit. Why get my ex boyfriend and his friends to get involve in your childish act. Seriously, I don't mind going right into your face and make you the laughing stock infront of your friends. If you didn't know, Ilana is fucking arrogant. I don't need back up, I got my own back bone. You wanna come mess with me bring it on. I don't need to touch you or any sort. Words coming out from my mouth is enough to kill you already.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Monday, November 2, 2009 11:56 PM
Finally found the time to update. I've been updating my plurk instead of my blog. Well, I prefer long posts for my blog. Looks nicer and more interesting to read instead of a few sentences and lines. If you know what I mean..
Work is awesome. I so fucking love my job, it's gonna be difficult to part my job if I'm going back to school to study.. It all depends on my results actually, which I don't know when it'll be out. Dumb shit. It's like come on, I wanna know it earlier so at least I got more time to plan. Like if I'd flunk it, I'll continue working and pray hard for a raise. Or if I did well, I might consider taking private o's or retake my n's (acad paper) and then continue with o's. Either way, I'm never ever going to ITE! If I ever did, like what my dad mentioned he would hang me up the tree. What a father right? HAHA. Great motivation for me. Thanks dad.
Talking about my dad, it's his birthday today! Same goes to Jasmine's mum and my step brother. It's boyfriend day today and I fucking didn't spend much time with baby boy. Poor thing. He waited for me you know. So touching. Bought him his favourite cookies as an apology. Whenever I go out like shopping with the girls, I would always buy back things for him. Sucha sweet girlfriend aren't I? Teeheehee.
I'm going to prepare my supper and off to bed. So fattening right? But I don't get fat easily even if I eat many meals a day. What goes in come out.. You know what I mean, my digestive system is gooooood. :) even when little one came.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Work is awesome. I so fucking love my job, it's gonna be difficult to part my job if I'm going back to school to study.. It all depends on my results actually, which I don't know when it'll be out. Dumb shit. It's like come on, I wanna know it earlier so at least I got more time to plan. Like if I'd flunk it, I'll continue working and pray hard for a raise. Or if I did well, I might consider taking private o's or retake my n's (acad paper) and then continue with o's. Either way, I'm never ever going to ITE! If I ever did, like what my dad mentioned he would hang me up the tree. What a father right? HAHA. Great motivation for me. Thanks dad.
Talking about my dad, it's his birthday today! Same goes to Jasmine's mum and my step brother. It's boyfriend day today and I fucking didn't spend much time with baby boy. Poor thing. He waited for me you know. So touching. Bought him his favourite cookies as an apology. Whenever I go out like shopping with the girls, I would always buy back things for him. Sucha sweet girlfriend aren't I? Teeheehee.
I'm going to prepare my supper and off to bed. So fattening right? But I don't get fat easily even if I eat many meals a day. What goes in come out.. You know what I mean, my digestive system is gooooood. :) even when little one came.
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009 11:49 PM
I could never bring myself to walk away from you and you know it. Psyching my innocent mind, to leave that awful morose place. It didn't get me far. You were so close yet so far. Then you made me feel so crazy.
Today wasn't a good day, what a off day.. Hopefully the next will a much much better one. I don't expect much, just want my day to go well..
I'm sorry baby, cheer up okiedokie? I'm always here for you. See you on monday, our next off day. Good night! Smooches.
Gotta go readers. Working tomorrow. Thinking about work makes me feel so lazy sometimes, all that standing and up and down the ladder. Sian 1/2. What to do. Work is work. Time to learn to work hard for my money instead of counting on my dad for it. :D
Somehow, the conversation mentioned your name and someone asked if I knew you.
Looking away, I thought of all the times we had together..
Sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more and then without an explanation you were gone.
I looked to where they were waiting for an answer and then said softly..
"Once.. I thought I did."
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Today wasn't a good day, what a off day.. Hopefully the next will a much much better one. I don't expect much, just want my day to go well..
I'm sorry baby, cheer up okiedokie? I'm always here for you. See you on monday, our next off day. Good night! Smooches.
Gotta go readers. Working tomorrow. Thinking about work makes me feel so lazy sometimes, all that standing and up and down the ladder. Sian 1/2. What to do. Work is work. Time to learn to work hard for my money instead of counting on my dad for it. :D
Somehow, the conversation mentioned your name and someone asked if I knew you.
Looking away, I thought of all the times we had together..
Sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more and then without an explanation you were gone.
I looked to where they were waiting for an answer and then said softly..
"Once.. I thought I did."
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
12:30 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-OUyD_Hu4mk/
Click the link up there. And tell me whether tonight is gonna be a good night or not. HAHAHA!
Being nice has it's consequences. And being arrogant calls for bitching.
This world is really ironic. Note the emphasis.
My route of escapism from the real world = Dance, like there ain't a soul watching.
Don't let them turn down your music.
Can't stop, won't stop.
Just came back from work, went to meet Aminah and the guys. She was telling me how disgusting and heart wrenching she was when she saw videos of the abortion process. Yeah, tell me about it. I know it's killer and etc but fuck.. I never wanted it this way, if my man was more responsible and more supportive I would definitely give this child a life. Oh well, serve me right for falling in love with the wrong one. Should have took the advices my friends, my ex(s) and my collegues gave.
By the way, some of you might not know. I'm working at M)phosis, currently working at City Link's outlet. Will be running around a few outlets before confirmation. I need training from managers, supervisors and etc. Thank god I'm a fast learner. :)
The best thing about this job is that you've only got 5 working days in a week. And the pay isn't bad. Awesome, met one part time girl today. She's so my cup of tea, I have problems communicating with some of my collegues but as for her.. It's pretty different. It's like I've known her ever since.. Haha. She can't wait for the next working day with me. I'll miss working with you too Alina. :)
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
Click the link up there. And tell me whether tonight is gonna be a good night or not. HAHAHA!
Being nice has it's consequences. And being arrogant calls for bitching.
This world is really ironic. Note the emphasis.
My route of escapism from the real world = Dance, like there ain't a soul watching.
Don't let them turn down your music.
Can't stop, won't stop.
Just came back from work, went to meet Aminah and the guys. She was telling me how disgusting and heart wrenching she was when she saw videos of the abortion process. Yeah, tell me about it. I know it's killer and etc but fuck.. I never wanted it this way, if my man was more responsible and more supportive I would definitely give this child a life. Oh well, serve me right for falling in love with the wrong one. Should have took the advices my friends, my ex(s) and my collegues gave.
By the way, some of you might not know. I'm working at M)phosis, currently working at City Link's outlet. Will be running around a few outlets before confirmation. I need training from managers, supervisors and etc. Thank god I'm a fast learner. :)
The best thing about this job is that you've only got 5 working days in a week. And the pay isn't bad. Awesome, met one part time girl today. She's so my cup of tea, I have problems communicating with some of my collegues but as for her.. It's pretty different. It's like I've known her ever since.. Haha. She can't wait for the next working day with me. I'll miss working with you too Alina. :)
Till then.
Love, Ilana Thanawong.
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